I'm tired of existing and not being
I have been feeling stagnated. Most people in bearblog are much further in life, with careers, kids, and thinking about retirement. But I'm just starting adult life, so forgive me for sounding like I'm whining, but I'm still at a moment in life where having doubts and uncertainties is normal.
I'm tired of college, I feel like I'm going nowhere. My area has a lot of applicability and does not lack job opportunities. I'm thinking of pausing my course for a bit and finding a job. Actually see how it works, you know?
Classes are basically just theory, which is important, but I'm tired of it. Without applying what was taught, I feel like I already forgot some essential parts of the most advanced topics.
I usually would not talk about it here, but I think I resonated a lot with "creo que estoy muriendo". I feel like I'm too young to be just waiting for nothing, I have to do something with myself, with my life, I'm tired of existing and not being.
To be honest, I don't think everyone in my life will think I'm doing the right thing. Nor do I know if I'm capable of going against what people expect of me, but I know things cannot stay the way they are.
This is way more personal than what I usually post, but I needed to put it out there.